Up At 4 AM Today
So what do you do when you’re awakened at 4:00 AM and can’t go back to sleep? Used to be, I’d toss and turn. Now I come and write.
Although I don’t have my cup of coffee handy (I’m still hoping sleep will come in a little while) it is morning. When I wondered what I should write about, I immediately heard the Beatles singing in my head.
Love, love, love.
One of the most important things I learned early on in this journey came from what I can only describe as a vision. I saw myself in another time, in another place, likely another dimension. I had the feeling I had been in darkness for what had seemed like forever. When I expanded my awareness out in the darkness I could feel nothing but myself. And I was alone.
Just as I brought all of myself back together, something from behind me dug long claws into my right shoulder, shredding it. My immediate response (I was in a semi-crouched position at the time) was to roll away from the attacker and attempt to draw my sword.
I struggled, because it was my sword arm that was damaged. I did get the sword out and prepared to attack, but as I raised the sword above my head, I heard very clearly one word: “HOLD!” (I figure if this was just my imagination, I would’ve heard the word “stop”.)
I slowly lowered my sword, pointed the tip at the ground, and rested my hands on the hilt. My opponent didn’t move, this beast I was facing.
As I looked up into the eyes of this creature, recognition dawned. I was looking into the eyes of myself. And my heart opened up. As I stood there radiating love, I noticed the beast began to fade. And as it faded, I found myself becoming stronger. Soon, only the eyes remained. It was like the Cheshire cat in the story of Alice in Wonderland.
And just as the eyes winked out, I heard I heard very clearly in my head: Love is the most powerful force in the Universe.
And suddenly, with that awareness, I was no longer in that place.
I was awake when I had this experience, so I cannot call it a dream. I do understand that symbolically that beast would’ve represented all my fear, my shadow, the parts of me I judged, and the parts of me I battle.
The sensation of the strengthening of myself when I loved that beast into nonexistence felt real, and to me was a demonstration of the power of love. Love in its purest form. Love that is mixed with generous amounts of compassion.
This is what you get when it’s a morning without the coffee!
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